December 30, 2025
The medicine is kind but not always gentle. It gives you the experience you need — not necessarily the experience you want.
Before sitting with ayahuasca last year, I was given the caution above. Ayahuasca comes from two plants: stems of the Banisteriopsis caapi vine and leaves of the Psychotria viridis shrub. It comes from nature. And I believe nature is God. So really, the same could be said for God — or the Universe, or whatever name you ascribe to what’s bigger than us.
The universe is kind, but not always gentle. The universe gives you the experience you need — not necessarily the experience you want. I find a deep comfort in that. Especially in moments of pain or grief or confusion. It’s not about punishment; it’s about preparation. It’s love. The universe has your back, and when you're going through a hard time, it's precisely what you need to be going through.
My experience with the plant medicine was painful — emotionally and physically. It forced me to release control and to trust. And in that surrender, I finally saw clearly, and for the first time, I felt viscerally. That’s the truth about transformation: it doesn’t caress. It carves. It breaks you open, not to return you to who you were, but to reveal who you’ve always been, beneath the noise. The version of you that’s been there all along, waiting patiently to be remembered, to be given permission.